A heartfelt congratulations to my husband for reaching his 90 days clean mark. For outsiders that probably seems like such a little and not worth congratulating… but to us it means so much more.
Its 90 days that he is free from the grip of his addiction, free from the hell he was living in. 90 days that he is off the streets. 90 days that his mind is not clouded by the fog that the drugs create.
Although it’s not the longest he has been clean (nor that it can be measured that way) but it surely is the first time that he has been truly clean within himself. Completely opened himself to his faults and defeats and works every day to rectify them or at the very least, acknowledge them.
For an addict, the drugs are not the problem, it’s the solution. The addict has to find a new solution to the way their mind works and in turn will help prevent them from running back in the arms of their drug of choice. They find that solution in the NA community.
It makes my heart happy to hear him in his current state, their “One day at a time” means they can do not plan to far ahead, as that is how they lose track but to hear how he wants to do things for himself; shows his changed attitude and mind-set. It’s a little hard for me to let go of the reigns; of my controlling nature and desire to sort everything out quicker. Hello, to the learning curve that I’m now faced with. To step back and let things play out the way they are supposed to. LET GO and LET GOD!
I will pray for strength and courage to be presented to Chris every day in the different areas that he may need it and I hope he remembers the following quote….. as I believe in him and know he is strong enough to continue on his road of recovery.
The stumbles will not define him yet the desire to live a clean and sober life will hopefully keep him going back to the only place that he going to help him stay clean.
“Keep coming back, it works if you work it, so work it , you’re worth it!”
I Love you, Always & Forever!